The future

Is a highly unsure place for me. I know exactly how I'd like to live, support myself as much as possible and make just enough money from odd sources to keep food coming in and a place to stay, to pursue my interests, and be able to see my friends often and etc etc etc... It's all so hopeful and idealistic, I know it will never become, and sometimes the way I cling to my gratingly optimistic, naive ways, while being thoroughly cynical and pessimistic in regards to the majority of the world outside my isolated self-bubble; it grows frustrating and furthers my existential quandries. It's not that I constantly obsess over where I came from or anything, but rather that survival is key, and some luxuries would be great, and that survival isn't a garuntee, it isn't entitled. So I try to find ways to live the life I want, and avoid the one everyone else wants me to live. Honestly, though, I feel that examining life takes away from the time you have to live it. Going to church, saving your eternal soul while your body rots away, not for me. I therefore generally feel I've substantially understood my world, and I go on with my life.

Honestly, through that paragraph, there were so many tangents I wanted to go off on, areas of what I want, to explain. I eventually lost track and my mind got bogged down, so I can only hope I successfully communicated what I intended to.

Album of the past few days, more tomorrow( later today ):

Dan Deacon - Spiderman of the Rings
Experimental | Electronic
Release Date:May 8, 2007

Download:
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Ha, I use wikimedia for most of my album art sources.
This guy is really cool, his composition is so abstract and childish, yet Deacon's classical compositional skills give it validity as more than random fiddlings on salvaged electronics. That's the other cool thing about him, he apparently gathers random electronic instruments and then proceeds to circuit-bend his heart out, distorting things beyond recognition and inserting emotion into what would otherwise be blips and sines.

I think I could take a lesson from this guy. I've got a tax refund coming, maybe I'll invest in some signal generators, shitty FX pedals, tube amps, maybe something more real like a wavesynth or something depending on how much I get; and just start putting stuff together. It's something I've wanted to do for a long time and only a lack of talent in the field has stopped me, and I'm sure with enough trying, I'll get a few decent things. If not, I enjoy the process nonetheless. I've already got my modded keyboard and the Craigophone ( a tube, with BBs, you'll see. I have to post pictures of my keyboard and the Craigophone. )

One last note, I won't be doing any more album reviews as such. I feel that I have nothing new or interesting to contribute here, and am solely positive. Much more qualified opinions are to be found, and I'm not one to push my own opinion above someone else's, especially not in something as interprative as music.

Longest post yet, I think. Well, see you later today with more albums I guess and whatever "tickles me fancy".