No fun

This probably won't be enjoyable for anyone to read.

Today was a day of self-realization and analysis. I looked into myself, from existential questions, to moral and character processing. I realized firstly that my thought process is based almost entirely off opposition. Any thought, idea, notion that enters my mind, I decide a preferred angle on it, and promptly realize the equal validity of the counter. It's difficult to explain properly, and invasively frequent, occuring in msot every thought I come across. I know the way things should be, the way I want them to be, the way I know the must or will be, and the way they could be, it's not nearly as optimistic or naive as were a view of the perfect life. I had some sort of 3 page dissertation in my mind, a self-exploratory rambling that would make even myself uncomfortable and confused. As is the norm with this blog, and with my mind, I lost that thought, and I doubt it would have served any real purpose here. Let it suffice to say this is a pivotal moment in my life, not for any moment special to my life, but mostly society tells me it is.
GAH
Regardless, this is a hard time and my mind is busy with so much else, I can't concentrate on any of it for very long, only making it harder. I wish somewhat I could've explained the paradoxical, opposing nature of my thoughts( at least as of late ), but I suppose that itself is an example.
Excuse the rant.

In politics, all the major candidates are involved in low smear campaigns, and it's quite disappointing. And Ralph Nader has entered the race for the 357th time. Awesome, Nader. Go download some of all those albums from the past. Hopefully more cheery, fun things later.